Typing these words is setting off alarms all throughout my insecure mind. During my span of internet dwelling, I've branded and re-branded myself several times... and attempting to establish a new presence seems to be a step in the entirely wrong direction. It's like I'm going backwards, rewinding to a time when 14-year-old me was blogging and reading like the little homeschooled thing she was. That girl had so much fun on the internet. She had zero reservations when posting her blatant thoughts and silly ramblings for anyone and everyone to read.
Maybe this is me revisiting an era in my life; and hoping it will assist me in carving a new, improved creative outlet. Maybe I'm bored. Maybe this is the only idea that has sparked motivation in me in years. Maybe this is just a sub-conscience way to get my fingers to these keys and freaking write.
Who am I trying to be? I say to people I'm a writer, a reader, and there was that brief year of booktube that I desperately want to find the inspiration to go back to again.
"I just have to find the motivation."
"Inspiration hasn't really been helping me out lately."
"I'm always working."
"I. Have. No. Time."
What a lazy little lump of complaints and excuses I am.
No matter how much talent you have inside you, the only way it's going to get out is if you stop suppressing it. Fear of failing shouldn't control you to the point where you no longer do the things you love. Get up. Create. Live.
From my heart, to yours - don't sit around waiting for the right time to start. Your time is now. Make it count, right where you are with what you have... nothing is certain to be there tomorrow when you're "ready".
Maybe this is me revisiting an era in my life; and hoping it will assist me in carving a new, improved creative outlet. Maybe I'm bored. Maybe this is the only idea that has sparked motivation in me in years. Maybe this is just a sub-conscience way to get my fingers to these keys and freaking write.
Who am I trying to be? I say to people I'm a writer, a reader, and there was that brief year of booktube that I desperately want to find the inspiration to go back to again.
"I just have to find the motivation."
"Inspiration hasn't really been helping me out lately."
"I'm always working."
"I. Have. No. Time."
What a lazy little lump of complaints and excuses I am.
No matter how much talent you have inside you, the only way it's going to get out is if you stop suppressing it. Fear of failing shouldn't control you to the point where you no longer do the things you love. Get up. Create. Live.
From my heart, to yours - don't sit around waiting for the right time to start. Your time is now. Make it count, right where you are with what you have... nothing is certain to be there tomorrow when you're "ready".
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